The First Solar Orbit

‘The First Kiss of Adam and Eve’ by Salvador Viniegra (1891)

Beloved Α∞Ω,

I started writing this just months after we found each other. While you never wanted to see the list I used to ‘manifest’ you into my life, I still wanted you to know that I was serious when I said that you are all of it, and I love every single thing about you. Something stopped me and I realized it would have more meaning if I gifted it to you during a benchmark moment. One that really made sense. Like an anniversary… 

And then, in all of our typical ways, we analyzed what an anniversary actually was, what defined a year, and what benchmarks were actually the ones that should be the most celebrated. Since this is the first complete solar orbit we’ve shared intimately living and sharing every day of our lives together, I decided this was it. The first solar orbit that has revealed the most to us and where we have found out even more about each other that has strengthened our love and passion. Some of it was a bit challenging because of how much the changes in the world due to Covid have impacted us and our ability to do what we first set out to do before the lockdown came… and then the flights grounded… and then visas blocked… and all the other challenges we’ve had to navigate together so far away from both of our homes. Nonetheless, I will return the words you spoke to me earlier today… I am so grateful for this year with you. More than you know, and in a lot of ways, it has been the best year of my life, regardless of the challenges.

With the utmost Reverence and Gratitude, this is the best way I can shout my love from the mountain tops. My spoken words are clumsy and fail me, but my writing always wins. On the other side of this Monumental Integration we have been experiencing during this chaotic time there is a certainty that we both share that I want to honor. I feel this is the greatest possible public display of affection I can Immortalize In Eternity

I am writing this to you, and for all those who might read it to See and Know just how deeply the trajectory of my life has been altered by you in such beautifully profound ways, in such a short amount of ‘time’. Even though most will never understand the totality of what we have shared with each other, the Powerful Medicine we have been for one another, the True Nature of the tears we have cried, and the ways Our Souls Speak To Each Other in the language only we know, I believe that by the very act of spelling this all out I am carving it forever in the Compendium of the Universe’s History. We have already begun Collapsing Timelines and have realized New Dimensions of Possibility, perhaps even touching the Ninth Dimension? 😉 

The most pressing realization for me is that I thought I had singlehandedly ‘dreamt you into existence’ and thought I was calling you into my universe when in actuality, you showed me that we co-created an entirely new one for us to exist in with our love. No one has ever done that with me before. I feel that the very door to the Parallel Universe that you spoke of could only be unlocked when we came together. 

Within those first few moments of my ‘time’, you anxiously asked me for, I knew I was getting to know the current incarnation of you… the one I have always danced with, in all spaces, and all times throughout the multiverse… and this was ‘it’. That I was just meeting the person I would probably spend the rest of my life with. Every last bit of it happening in a Burning Man space known as Lagrange. And then they named 2020’s burn ‘Multiverse’. The joke was entirely on us! 

Even though this year’s Burn was canceled, the fire in our hearts has grown and is unstoppable, and since you never wanted to see that 111 list, I want to tell you the 111 reasons why I love you now (including our inside jokes, code words, and, with all that has been revealed and everything we’ve been through. And, in spite of All The Magick we both see, I also want to appeal to your logical and rational side with the reasons why I Know Who You Are … and a list helps, even though it loops back around to the magick and all the feeling over knowing that stands out to me. 

  1. You Are Everything I had hoped for and dreamed of, and so much more than I was able to imagine I was worthy of until you showed me just how Good and Righteous Love could actually be. 
  2. You Knew before you even saw me by simply hearing my voice. That level of recognition means everything to me. 
  3. Your Spiritual Journey, and how you are moving through it in such a Unique, Conscious, Intellectual, and Honest way fascinates me and I admire you so much for it. 
  4. I am grateful for how you Love Yourself, me, and all the others we love together while maintaining your balance with Discernment and Interdependence.
  5. You are consistently True to Yourself and Authentically Express in ways that continue to teach me more of how I can be. 
  6. Almost every day you find a new and meaningful way to Love Me and Remind Me To Love Myself, and allow me to do the same for you!
  7. Intuition and following one’s heart is the key to everything, from my perspective, and you following yours to find me when I was more than a continent away,  is all the evidence I needed that you are ‘Him’.
  8. You are the most profound Psychonautic Co-Pilot I’ve ever had, with insights so unique that you open my eyes even more in ways only you can do for me.
  9. You have Dedicated Yourself to the Success of My Visions, not just me. You have voluntarily put so much of your own ‘time’, energy, knowledge, experience, and heart into them like no one ever has from a place of unconditional love and giving. It means more to me than you might ever understand. 
  10. You are Authentic with your emotions and needs, handling them responsibly, allowing yourself to lean into me when it’s needed, and keeping communication open so I always know where you are whether you want or need my support and affection in a moment or just need your own space to process your experience. 
  11. I Feel Safer With You than I have with any other man in my life. In every healthy and meaningful way. 
  12. Your wisdom and knowledge Educates and Liberates everyone you share it with. You are the greatest teacher I’ve ever had and have ‘enlightened’ me in ways I didn’t know existed. I’m grateful you allow me to do the same for you. 
  13. You found me because you gave yourself Freedom, and allowed yourself the Spontaneity and Adventure I crave and need in a partner. Although that has been temporarily thwarted by current events, I am excited about all of the adventures we have planned together. 
  14. Your Vegan Cooking rivals mine and the ways you make meals for us show me how much you care about and wish to nurture our bodies for a longer life together.
  15. You are even more Capable and Excited to Travel the World with me than I was without you. I’m grateful that we both have places to show each other, and places we will see for the first time together. 
  16. The amount of laughter we share is the medicine we both needed, and I love how Playful, Friendly, and Outgoing you are with all of the people I love.
  17. It is important to me that the person I end up with is just as excited about Transformational and Conscious Festivals as I am, and the fact that we met at Burning Man, then you brought up us doing the festival circuit together as the first thing you wanted to do with me after we had left the playa, and that we both had the same documentary project in mind around this subject could not have been just an accident or coincidence!
  18. You are a Powerful Healer that is so humble, you don’t even call yourself that. 
  19. Your lack of material interests is the Simplicity I was seeking, even though, like me, you enjoy ‘the finer things’ when they’re available to be experienced. I love our shared interest in quality over quantity and how that positively impacts our life together. 
  20. You are Gentle and Compassionate with yourself and others while having calm strength as a foundation, even when you’re feeling weak.
  21. I love how Passionate you are with and for me. The way you pull me into you and use every part of your body to interlock and weave us together… the way you kiss me so intentionally, hold my hair while you smell me, and all the ways your body communes with mine in deep bliss as you claim me. No one has ever made love to me in as many ways and with as much intensity as you do, every single day. 
  22. I love that our Individual Perspectives often have their own polarity, even while pointing to the same things, that create balance while helping us both to grow in so many ways through one another.
  23. I deeply admire the Courage, Integrity, and Bravery you maintain through all you have and continue to move through in your life. 
  24. You are Community Minded with Strong Leadership and delegation skills while letting others lead until you are asked to or you see that it is necessary.
  25. I appreciate how you organically participate in keeping our spaces Clean and Organized so that our spaces are safe, comfortable, and relaxing for both of us. 
  26. You are truly Awake, Aware, and Taking Positive Action in the World with me, but doing so from a more informed place than anyone else ever has, and in a powerfully strategic way that I had dreamed of, but hadn’t believed would happen. 
  27. I am in awe at how much of a Powerful Speaker and Teacher you are, and I feel so profoundly blessed that you envision a future of the work we can do to help heal others together with our hearts and minds. 
  28. As a fellow Sapiosexual, I know it is unnecessary for me to tell you how important it is that you are An Intellectual, Visionary, and Creator that understands what I’m doing and chooses to do the work with me, bringing your vision into it in a way that integrates so easily and just adds so much more impact than I thought was possible. 
  29. After all that I have been through, only someone who is able to Gently Point Me Into Greater Integrity would be able to get through to me. You are doing so in ways that I grow more respect and reverence for you each day. The ways you so gently speak to my blindspots, cognitive biases, and areas of misinformed perceptions with unconditional love and without a need to be right, but a desire to help me evolve is something that I will be eternally grateful for. Thank you for also letting me do the same for you. 
  30. Your Self Control and your Peaceful Demeanor heals me more each day. 
  31. Your Expertise in the Digital Realms has upgraded my life and mission and has brought so many of the missing parts and pieces that I needed for success. 
  32. You are an Open, Honest, Equanimous Communicator who is quick to speak the truth and receive it in appropriate circumstances.
  33. For the first time in my life, I am with someone that my tribe Loves, Respects, Admires, and Embraces fully. This means a lot… not just to me, but to all of them as well! Thank you for just being you. 
  34. You Listen and Hold Space for me in a truly meaningful way.
  35.  I needed A Trickster Like Me, and I’m grateful for all of the fun that we have with each other.
  36. You bring your education and Understanding of the Ancient World Cultures, Philosophy, and History in a way that balances the Esoteric Wisdom I brought. 
  37. You remain Humble and Curious in your spirituality, even though you are far more advanced than me and many others that I know.
  38. I watch you consistently be Conscious In Thought, Word, and Deed in a way that keeps me on my toes and reflecting on how I can continue to embody what I preach.
  39. You are Committed and Loyal to me in a palpable way that allows me to be Vulnerable and Authentic with you.
  40. I love your Artistic and Creative Expressions, and how they collaboratively align with the creations of others I love. I also love that you make things that I want in my environments.
  41. I am grateful for all the ways you are willing to ‘Chop Wood and Carry Water’, firetend, and share a desire to homestead.
  42. You are willing to be a Light in the Darkness for others in our life, and for the way you do it for me so I can do it for so many others.
  43. I will never be able to express the entirety of my Awe and Gratitude for all the amazing ideas you bring to the table for our Social Impact Ventures.
  44. You have been a Political Activist since before I knew what politics or activism was, and even more grateful to know we’ve been on the same side all along, on different continents and in dramatically different cultures, fighting for the same causes.
  45. I’m honored by how much value you see in my Rituals and Ceremonies, and how much you desire them as a part of our life together.
  46. Everything about you is Sensual, Attractive, and Sexually Gratifying to me.
  47. I love how you embrace all of your Authentic Expressions and Love Yourself Enough To Be Yourself while creating the space for me to be safe to do and be the same.
  48. Since the first moment we met and sat down to talk, you have always been Present and Available to and for me, even when you were thousands of miles away.
  49. I love the beauty of your Relationship With Nature and all the ways you make love to it, and see our place in it.
  50. I love that you have remained Open Minded to New Perspectives and Ideas from each myself and the people around us so that we can continue to evolve together.
  51. I Love What Makes Us, Us.  All of it. Our secret language, code words, our shared quirks, habits, and the organic symbiosis that makes us so uniquely who we are individually and as a couple.
  52. I love that you Love Gaia just as much as I do.
  53. I love that you love All Things Fungi as much as I do.
  54. I love that you want to Go To Mars and Experience Outer Space as much as I do.
  55. I love that you are Willing and Capable of Collaborating for a greater cause.
  56. I am grateful for all the ways you bring greater awareness and action plans to our health and longevity in so many ways and still Honor the Power and Value of Plant Medicines.
  57. I am so grateful for all the Beautiful Dreams you hold for our life together.
  58.  I love that you are an Autodidactic Bibliophile and Lexophile and that you actually know what that means!
  59. Your Eccentricity and Quirkiness drew me to you, and are some of the sexiest things about you!
  60. Cuddles… I fucking love our cuddles so much! And I love how often you initiate random cuddle moments throughout the day and how affectionate you are with me in so many ways.
  61. I love that you Love the Outdoors and Enjoy Star Watching as much as I do, which we have officially done in three countries across two continents in less than a year!
  62. I’m grateful that you are not just willing, but are actually creating the platform to have our Hearts, Minds, and Voices Heard.
  63. I’m Grateful for how often you express your gratitude for me and how much you value even the small things in our experience.
  64. I love that you are so Charismatic that some of my closest friends call you ‘The Magnet‘!
  65. I am grateful that you came to me as Empowered as I was and that we continue to empower ourselves and each other.
  66. You may never understand how vital it was to me that you have put so much effort into helping me be a better Peace Ambassador and Advocate.
  67. I love how Respectful and Reverent To the Feminine that you are.
  68. I’m grateful for the ways you Foster Brotherhoods and hold other men accountable with integrity.
  69. I needed someone that was a Road Warrior, and that your first desire with me was to get on the road together was just one more moment of perfection.
  70. You are just as happy living in a cabin in the woods, a hempcrete dome in the jungle, an RV on the road or camped at a festival. ALL OF THIS means so much to me. 
  71. I love that that the entire time we’ve been together, you have left a Positive Impact on the lives of everyone you connect with.
  72. You may never understand just how much it means to me that you are In Love With All Aspects of My Physical Form.
  73. I am so in love with how committed you are to the intimate exploration of our Divine Union within and without.
  74. As an introvert, it means the world to me that you can be Comfortable In Shared Silence.
  75. You were eager for our time together while Grateful and Patient during our moments apart.
  76. It was literally a requirement for you to be a Burning Man veteran that used his space and time on the Playa wisely and to its fullest. Apparently, that worked out well. 😉
  77. I am grateful for how compassionately, responsibly, and maturely you have handled our Difficult Conversations.
  78. I love how Practical you are with the application of your spiritual knowledge.
  79. I appreciate that you Trust Your Intuition, as well as Honoring Mine and that you see the signs and meanings with me.
  80. I am grateful for the way you have set Healthy Boundaries with me, your friends, and your family.
  81. I love that you are Willing To Give and Receive Credit where it’s rightly due.
  82. I’m grateful that you’re Taller Than Me… even if it’s only a little bit!
  83. I’m grateful that you Love Me Exactly the Way I Am, with all the history and scars, internally and externally, I come with.
  84. I love that you are Comfortable With ‘Imperfection’ in yourself and others.
  85. I love that you Honor and Respect Boundaries for yourself and others, and you have NEVER tried to question mine in a manipulative way. That fact that you were curious about them in a genuine way helped me heal and let go of some of them, and for that, I am eternally grateful to you!
  86. Sapiosexually, it is super hot that you are A Rational, Logical, Philosophical, and Scientific Thinker that continually checks in with his heart.
  87. I am grateful that you have kept An Open Mind About Paranormal and Supernatural Events.
  88. I am grateful for the ways you are Diplomatic In Negotiations and Deal Making.
  89. I love that you are Grateful for Your Past, The Present, and Excited About Our Future Together.
  90. For better or worse, I love that you are also An Ecstatic, Adventurous Eater, and Kitchen Wizard.
  91. One of the best parts of our relationship is that you are Emotionally Sovereign and Take Healthy Responsibility For Your Responses To Triggers when they come up.
  92. You literally melted my heart when you said, word for word, that you are Grateful To Hold My Ladder While I Reach For The Stars.
  93. Your Balanced and Informed Insights and Perspectives On My Ability to Impact The World with my visions, while giving me realistic timelines and goals has helped me to stop getting burnt out and feeling like a failure. That is one of the greatest gifts anyone has ever given me.
  94. Taking baths together, you working my feet, washing my back, and generally Pampering Me in so many ways, is a blessing and I cherish it!
  95. I am infinitely grateful that you are Connected and In Balance With Your Inner Child, and act as a Strong and Nurturing Co-Parent to Both of Our Inner Children.
  96. Yes, it was a requirement for me that you Treat Your Body as a Temple, Allowing Yourself to be Natural, including Growing Your Hair and a Beard – while maintaining good hygiene. Thank you for just being who you are!
  97. I love all the Magick In Your Words.
  98. I love that you and I share so many of the same dreams, including A Home With Dogs and Goats… and an OUTDOOR cat. 😉
  99. I love that you are also A Wolf Spirit ready to help build and lead our pack.
  100. One of the reasons I feel safe with you is because of how Calm and Capably Responsive you have been in urgent situations, and how much you take on.
  101. I deeply appreciate that you are A Survivalist in ways I hadn’t thought about becoming one and help bring a new line of thought to strengthen what I was already doing for preparedness.
  102. I love that you share my enthusiasm for things like Transhumanism, Dynamic Tattoos, Life Extension, and more.
  103. I love that I have found a worthy opponent that is equally Talented In the Arts of Snark and Sarcasm.
  104. I love your shared love of Tea and Coffee!
  105. I absolutely love and adore how you Dance and do so in such a free and authentic way!
  106. I am immensely grateful for how Motivational and Inspiring you are for me in so many ways.
  107. I finally found someone that is Able To Keep Up With Me In Every Way, while equally Enjoying Quiet Downtime with me.
  108. It means everything to me that we share the same tastes in Entertainment and Gaming
  109. I am so very in love with how much you are Comfortable With Nudity and Share My Liberal Perspectives on Human Sexuality
  110. Wyoming, Raccoons, Boop Boop Be Doop, Unicorn Onesies, and Mouth Farts! LOL!!! 
  111. Literally… Infinity… and it’s only been a year and a few months since we first met. Together we create a Beautiful Mosaic of Conscious Observation.

You may not be what society, religion, or social norms would consider ‘perfect’… and while you might look at yourself and perceive flaws, scars, frustrations, struggles, weaknesses, or any other measure that you or others might use to judge you negatively, but for me… You Are Perfect

I love you, Hatter. I always have and always will… and we both know that.


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